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Monday, July 30, 2007

guess what>

guess what.. my cousin (pake) has gone back home yesterday, and parents who supposed to be back two days ago .. don't come back yet.. :( well mum did call to say that dad and uncle..wanted to stay on and gamble..and i don't quite like the idea.. u know.. i'm afraid that they might get addicted.. but i think dad wouldn't..mum sounded like wanted to come back.. umm.. well may be it is a right decision that i don't go with them..
so they are coming back today ... i really wish that it is today not after today..

well...now my grandma is addicted to 'gong' i know this series is quite long time ago but well i guess she might like.. and so i borrowed from my cousin (in thai version) so grandma can unerstand.. :) haha and so i somehow like rewatching it again.. i know it is kind of wasting time.. but well i don't have anything else to do anyway.. not reading finance !! please!.. i just can't understand.. i tried..very hard :( it is just not make sense.. well.. would still read but prefer to read at night..

# posted by milk bottle | 11:40 PM | 0 comments

Saturday, July 28, 2007

gamble>

yesterday.. i had a family gathering..with my fatehr 's side.. er.. well i'm not closed to them nor meet them often..very rare actually ..so to be frank ,i don't really feel like going for the dinner.. (very bad huh me?)
well but it is not as bad as i thought.. in fact they are quite friendly.. i really don't know why.. but two uncle (dad's younger brother)did talk to me.. i feel quite ...weird because i never talk to them before.. _'' and grandpa is also very nice(even though ) i never really have a conversation with him.. i mean they are very humble in some way.. and kept telling me to eat more.. _'' ? i don't want to make them feel bad.. really.. i know that they are not well-to do.. and i tried to talk as much as possible.. but oftenly i just can't think of anything to say..
i even choose my very normal clothes.. for the dinner.. well.. but i'm glad that they are earning hard for their living.. because my mum ever told me a lot not so good thing about them.. well during the dinner.. my mum took most of the converstion ...my dad is real quiet .. he doesn't really talk to his brothers..or parents.. i think he's very weird.. well my mum told me that their family a bit weird.. __ ?

anyway today my parents.. yea they go to casino again...doesn't sound very nice right? actually my uncle (mum's brother) asked us to go.. well but i'm sure that mum would be there to advice dad. i just hope that.. u know.. we could hee..get some return from there..if yes..i told mum that i want buy the clothes very nice lol(but very expensive) but if really get the return....it's ok because it is ...like i'm going o get the clothes free ...haha... but i didn't go with them.. i don't think i should go ...there's nothign much to do.. but come to think about it.. i should go.. well i can read book as they are playing..because i didn't study at home anyway.. may be i can stdy better there..

so i'm alone at home with grandma while grandpa is out... well but my cousin is coming to staying with me(pake) so nice of her.. :)
sigh~ i still can't play well..----piano.. i often think am i wasting my parents' money? i feel so despondent and despair.. like i just can't do things the right way like i wanted to.. and now i'm playing 'i believe'that song ..still can't get it right :( and jay's song --- an jing

# posted by milk bottle | 1:53 AM | 0 comments

Monday, July 23, 2007

better>

well... i'm feeling better after that day.. but still sometimes.. i called out 'Lucky' and would suddenly reminded that it's not here anymore..

yesterday i went to my cousin's place and decided to give her the earings.. for her birthday and she likes it so much.. :) quite glad too..
and in the afternoon we went to the eat lunch at Canton.. and we also went to jira library.. to look for a book ---basic for learning finance... well and after reading just a page make me realised that finance is difficult.. because i can't undestand at all.. oh no! i guess life will be difficult for me.. in these coming month..

well ...now i'm actually playing 'an jing' composed by jay chou.. hee i was really happy about that.. take times of course..

# posted by milk bottle | 2:58 AM | 0 comments

Thursday, July 19, 2007

miserable>

it was the very worst day of my life in this year.. i just couldn't believe it but i have to .. Lucky ,my dog is dead......

it had been sicked for few days.. and didn't eat much or well.. and two days ago it didn't eat at all.. i used special pork frost..mix with rice..and first time ,lucky did eat..but second time it didn't finished it and third time,didn't even smell it..
it looked very unwell.. and vomitted what it had eaten..more than that it can't even stand up..or go to do its business.. and so today my mum asked the workers to bring it to see doctor.. and the doctor gave it an injection..and gave some medicines.. i was really stubborn.. i should have been more understandings.. i made a big bowl of chocolate milk.. which Lucky quite likes...but then lucky also didn't want to take... and it looked rather in bad-state.. i thought that doctor already gave injection so it should be fined but it didn't

i put the food there but lucky didn't touch it at all.. so i decided to feed it but it also didn't want to open it's mouth... i was quite ignored.. and walked away.. which made me really regret ,really do.. and i went to practice my piano...
i also did tell my mum that lucky refuse to eat and so..medicine.. not likely because have to be taken after meal.... and my mum went out to see it.. then quite a while.. my mum was sobbing and came to me... i was not sure of what i was going to hear... my mum said that Lucky was very faint.. then when she spoke to it..it breath harder...(sort of response).. then i went out to see.. it was motionless... i touched it and tried to wake it up..but it didn't response..

i went to the toilet.. try to calm down... and while typing this ... i still couldn't believe that it really happened...

after that i switched on the computer and use internet.. but i was too sensitive to write anything.. so i played game.. but my mind was not with the game.. and game over continually...
and then my mum came and said wanted to play too.. well i think we are the same.. i mean.. she wanted to do something to distract her from the thought
then later ,my mum was calling for my help... we had to clear its body.. i was hesitated if i should go down..and help.. it was so hurtful to be there at the scence again..i told myself that it would be the last time of seeing it and so i went down while my parents had found a plastic bag.. and put it into it not moving..which i was not really use to it then we got a string to tie it up and going to being it to bury tomorrow... it was a very big plastic bag on the floor...there was motion as well..and urine so we had to clean... and my grandma was passing some golden paper..(when people die and we have to burn this paper) suddenly i find that grandma is very kind and doesn't really hates dog like she said..
when i see dad,mum and grandpa..putting Lucky into the bag.. i just can't stand the sight of it.. and i don't want to cry in front of them.. just like that and i went to toilet.. my cousin came to stay with us too as she just got a job and from my place is nearer to her working place..and i don't want to be crying in front of her.. my eyes must be very red.. very swollen...my voice deepen.. guess they must have noticed but no one did say anything.. my cousin took a look at me..but didn't say a word.. which is good..i'm not very used to crying in front of her..

lucky was with me since before i went to study in singapore.. i guess it takes almost 10 years or more.. i'm not very sure...but it is very old..and it really ate like no tomorrow..eat almost everything.. and just now.. i went down...while most of my family members are sleeping... i went to see if Lucky was still there..sitting there..looking fined..but of course it isn't there at the stone chair..and the medicine is left untouched.....
very stupid right?
and i was there at the bag.. touching it for the last time..

# posted by milk bottle | 9:22 AM | 0 comments

Monday, July 16, 2007

birds>

well.. about two days ago on sunday i went to paragon..and my mum brought along her birthday shirt to change for size as m is too small for her..and lucky enough there is size L but still too tight..and so we asked for XL.. and very lucky that there is.. and when my mum wanted to try it on..we saw this jacket.. red with grey hood..quite nice.. and it costs like 995 bath not cheap lol but then if have discount card then we can got discount..and i saw a person buying clothes..with discound card..so i went to ask and so i bought the red jacket with her..using her discount card 20% off.. then later my mum asked me if i really like the jacket.. because i have quite a few..and i was quite taken aback.. 'did i really like it huh?' or because i just want to buy.. i'm not sure..but the jacket is not bad looking after all..moreover.. my mum said it's nice.. and well i think i can use it when i go university..

then in the evening we have a dinner with my cousin family.. at oishi grand.. and it's not cheap lol..but there is discount ..still i feel that i eat not worth the price that i pay..

at my mum's room..in the bathroom..there a small window and a bird came to make the nest..leaving three young baby..i often went to take a look at them... their mother would come few times a day to feed her youngs..and now.. the youngs have all dead.. which is very upsetting.. we also don't know what's wrong with it..my mum said one of it dropped from the window..and die..wel..and later all of them die..without any reason.. :(

these few days i have finished watching another drama.. 'Fire work' it was so funny! i mean in the beginning.. haha.. the girl sold her house to the guy...and the house is real lousy..water is not een flowing from the tag..and after bought it ,the guy just discover when he was washing his hair..and no water..then he had to use water from bottles...but at the back quite boring

# posted by milk bottle | 7:58 PM | 0 comments

Monday, July 09, 2007

winner>

well i 'd been watching tennis matches... and well the good matches that i like are.. like.. djokovic against nadal..and nadal against federer... i thin nadal plays really well..and i quite like djokovic.. :) hee.. as well as federer.. but quite disappointed that djokovic gave up during the match against nadal.. i think he's a good player but need to maintain his consistency umm

# posted by milk bottle | 10:38 PM | 0 comments

Thursday, July 05, 2007

break>

well.. i'm unable to do as what i wanted.. well at first i wanted not to talk to dad for a week..but well when today he asked me and i reply...
i 'm sure that he's regreted about what he did that day lol.. and mum was telling me that she had a talk to him.. that when i was driving and they both keep telling me what to do.. she said is it actually their force or not? because of what they do did give me a lot of stress.... and it is very true.. and my mum said to him about the accident that day.. she asked him to recap on his action lol.. that they both have experience in driving more than me.. the car that i drive is not as fast as the other one.. so she said is it their fault that actually caused accident.. which is really true! they finally know! i was so relieve that they do..
i have been suffering under pressure so much lol.. it was like.. never follow instruction---get scoldings.. follow instruction but too slow---accident happened/scoldings.. i was so touched that mum is so understandings but after i hadalready gotten so many stressed so much that i didn't want to drive every time when i needed to.. but today is a better day.. because they didn't say much... well dad said about two sentences.. and mum a few.. but not in a loud,agitated way.. :) so one problem is solved :) and dad tried to speak to me.. and ask if i want to eat ...whatever.. i just said no.. not really want to answer kind of attitude...
well should still teach him a lesson..
today is my mum 's birthday and i was still day-dreaming.. not really think which day it is.. and when she mentions to me.. haha.. well after reaching home i pass the present to her.. she quite happy haha.. :) as she didn't expect me to buy.. and dad who choose.. and they really just meant for each other.. they really are suitable.. dad know exactly what she likes which i don't.. and she loves the shirt..sport shirt.. which i at first find it very ugly.. but after seeing her wear it.. she looks so good in it.. dad has a good taste.. well i'm not but really just by the look at it. blue colour ,short sleeve with pink yellow flower all over.. i think it is like pajamas.. but the sixe is too small.. well so have to go and change and i'm not sure if we could.. because the receipt is gone..
hope can.. well and i'm sending an earrings for sarah.. but :( would be late.. but better than nothing

# posted by milk bottle | 9:19 AM | 0 comments

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

accident>

yesterday is the worst day of my life within this year..

it started off as a fined day.. not until when..i was driving home with my parents and there's construction in front of the line that i was driving in.. well but i didn't really notice that i was going to have to join with the line of the left.. and there was a big car..truck but bigger..which is used to carry things.. and it was about beside my car..then my dad told me(not in a nice way)to increase speed and overtake it..whatever it is ...it ended up that that 'truck' 's front part slide over with my car back wheel..

when i became more composed..we were stoppeed at the left side on the high way.. it was more terrible than i had thought.. not that the car were desized or what.. just a scratch...but worse than that..is dad scolded me like mad! crazy wolf? well i was really upset that i broke down.. and at the same time angry.. he expected me to quickly overtake that car when i did able to do it fast enough..and moreover that big truck refused to give way...

so we waited for insurance to come..anyway our car is under first class insurance so ..no matter we are in the wrong or not.. the insurance still had to pay for us..but sadly ended up that we are in the wrong.. and dad was like getting really mad from the starting to the waiting and to returning home...

# posted by milk bottle | 8:43 AM | 0 comments

Monday, July 02, 2007

no day>

feeling so ... sad may be? well..i really don't understand myslf too..

my grandma is like always saying that the maid are not doing a good job..and well but still we have to let them do something everytime they come..and my grandma was like taking away their works.. i told her not to do..and she still want to do.. well i guess it's because she is free and very free so she wanted to get something to do.. but then i don't want to do.. house work.. like apply wax to the wood in the house. i mean furniture.. and nobody asked her to do anyway.. she always want to do it.. so am i in the wrong?
the moral of the story is just that.. i feel like i'm a failure.

in msn ,i send to say 'hi' to kane ..well as a used to be friend..umm.. well and it is so weird ...why should he asked for my hp number...moreover we can just talk in msn and his mum sure has er..my house number.. anyway i didn't give to him.. and i also don't feel like talking at all now

# posted by milk bottle | 10:16 PM | 0 comments

Sunday, July 01, 2007

well>

it has been so many days.. and i also don't know what i have been busy with...well ok on firday i went to paragon with my dad..and we actually looked for my mum's present ...well the things there is Super! expensive...well i actually tought of buying earing for her...because my budget is not much but some nice ones can even go up to 1000 bath..more...well and my dad suggested that we should buy a shirt for her..can wear for sport or go to work.. well i don't think that the pattern is very nice.. but well.. i think my dad taste is better so..we did buy it.. it is having discount from 1200 to 700 plus.. bath..

yesterday is saturday... and well i have to drive to sathon as usual for my chinese class.. and well i feel that i drive better now compare to last time as i get less scoldings from my dad and my mum... and many times that did,i also get really mad too..!yesterday my parents actually wanted to go to see the bed cover..as there is a sal.. and we reached there like 4.30pm when i actually started at 5.30pm but mum said i could study first.. and as the sale is closed at 7pm...and well i asked if we could go and eat noodle at near by first.. and she was showing me that she's very disagreed..and after i get down from car.. and about to take out my book to study..my dad shout to me and ask if i wanted to go for noodle.. and i walked back to the car not very happy! and i was mumbling things to myself.. and of course my mum knows that i was not very happy..and she took a look at me.. well.. and after that i refused to talk much.. and now i'm quite regret.. am i having attitute problem? and i find myself very rude.. moreover my aunt was together with us.. i feel that i get frustrated very easily..mood swing..too well thee other time.. when i was driving and get scoldings.. my mum said me in an unhappy tone that..i'm very stubborn..well..i feel quite.. and nowadays i feel that i keep thinking that other people changes like friends?,cousin? well ..and may be the person that have changed is actually me ,myself? and it is being more and more obvious that way..i guess i'm being more heartless..stubborn..true..and bad temper.. :(

today is sunday...umm yes..i have piano lesson.. umm well .the teacher is actually very serious in teaching me.. but i feel quite tired.. and not quite in mood.. but i still try very hard to concentrate.. so can't balme me for that.. atleast i try my best.. to learn.. and absorb..and i'm learning a song.. 'n0othing gonna changed my love for u' well i played very slow..one thing that i like about htis teacher is that he didn't fall asleep when teaching me.. so that's quite nice of his.. and one thing that i don't like is that .. he talked a lot.. and i don't feel like listening.. haha

# posted by milk bottle | 7:04 AM | 0 comments