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Sunday, January 30, 2005
social studies>
sunday:
in the morning i woke up quite early...to practice on piano...then i tried to do chinese tuition homework as much as i could...then went for my english class...
during the lesson,my teacher taught us more than just english...he/her also taught abt some moral things which i think it's really very useful to me.i find that his lesson is very good!i still wondering if he is a lady or a man but i guess i know it now...i heard a student in the class called...MR...smth....so i guessed it's a he...but i still think that he looks like a lady...but still i don't know what his name is..
till now i still haven't finish with my homework!that's english journal abt SIR LANKA...and the social studies workbook!!!i HATE IT!why my teacher likes to combine the social studies and english together??she should know that i hate social studies as i did ever told her before!she likes history,i know....she shouldn't always combines it with english!it's not fair!!well..let's see later what can i do abt it...actually i have this idea of copying from my friend work but still it would make me feel gulity....later then i will try my best to answer smth in...
in the evening i went for jogging..today i jogged for 6 rounds...and yeah quite tired...for dinner i ate lots of things...i ate rice...then fruits followed by mango pudding(my guardian made=very nice),then i also ate potato chip...today i also ate ice-cream(chocolaye chip)...i have been eating ice-cream everyday...how can i not putting on weigh?but it's my favourite and it will be meaningless to live without it...so i need to have it...i really love ice-cream every flavours will do for me!today as i was playing computer...here...there was an msn page came up at the bottom of right hand conner again...i didn't really see it..but noticed later that's it's him again!i was strickened..and some thoughts poped up into my mind...'what does he want?'
he wanted me to vote for his photo again! it's no big deal but...i felt like being made useof...now i know how much i hate him!....i will not msn to him useless by answering smth...
from tomorrow onward i have to go for A math tuition all alone...must be a bit lonely then but still have to work hard...like what my teacher(english tuition) told the class today that our future is in our hands...so if we think we can do it then we will...i believe him!
Friday, January 28, 2005
a week had passed>
wednesday:
we had PE lesson for the first two period of the day....at the beginning of the lesson,we had to do some warming up and madam wong wanted us to run outside of the school compound.it was really a long route.we had to run all the way to the koven mrt station and and then continued to run for abt three more bus-stopped to the bus-stopped which i always take bus to school everyday.madam wong seemed to be at the back and lots of us were ahead of her. i stopped for a little while to chat with chao meng and a few of girls were in front of us and we then decided to take a short cut.we ran through the flats and trying to got our way out to school.however we were too naive as it was not that near to school...and we didn't even know the route well.and we were...lost.we started to panick,not knowing what to do we just kept walking on and on and tried to ask the resident there..but they didn't seem to even know where was our school.then some of us tried to ran while other just walked.we had to guess for the direction and when we found the main road..we rushed but to our disapppointment...it was the place where we had ran past just before...the time of the PE lesson was almost up..left only abt 5 minutes and we were still lost as if in the jungle.then we were decided to seperate our group into two as we had some disagreement abt the direction.not very long later,chao meng and i were lost from the group and we were somewhere in the park...there was a blue building at the other side of the road.i don't really know the place so chao meng...we asked for help from the jogger and she said that our school was quite far away...chao meng seemed to be very scared so did i but i was more composed than her.in the end we crossed the road to the blue building which there were a few buses with children inside.i guessed that it was a childcare center or smth.we told a man(who in charge of the bus)and he was willing to help us.therefore we got up the bus and told the driver abt the destination.many thoughts came into my mind like would madam wong went to find us?oer would we be punish?and we were there at our school at last.we crossed the road and ran into our school.yeah and i noticed that it was recess time!so well..we didn't miss any lesson but would we get the punishment or smth/?there in the parade square...i saw them,my classmates..and they were surprised and asked us lot of questions.however madam wong didn't look worried at all.after that sarah told me that we had ran abt 5 km...and we could lose abt 2 kg!i was so surprised and happy too!after i got change and later i knew how tired i was!i had never seen myself looked so wet and pale before...but i think it's an experience which i would never forget!
friday:i can't quite remember what had happened for this last few day but would try to recall.
i got back my bio class test paper and i got only 9.5/15...it made me feel bad abt it.i think that i did it better last year.this year i'm really busy with all the work and everythings.like my tuitions...i have A math tuition(two days),chinese and english.pj had made up her mind to quit the tuition.actually i'm quite sick of tuition too because it took lots of my time away.still i have to continued the tuition which i think that it can really help me.i have pile of work waitting for me to do them.well....they can almost made me mad but still i have this mentallity to win them.i just feel that by doing homework is some sort of competition.example:math....sometime i win when i got the answer but most of the time i lose to it.
during recess,i went to canteen with chen xin(china girl from my class)she's a very nice and decent girl.eventhough she can't really speak english but her understandings is good.she's also very hardworking and i knew that she must be able to do well for her exam! as i was waiting for the bus at the bus-stopped...sarah's friend was there too!named jason...i took out my the story to read.after a while i looked to noticed that the bus that was coming had three digits numbers...and i thought that it must be 113.usually there were only three buses...53,113 and 62..i said goodbye to sarah'friend and my mouth almost dropped open when i realized that it was 115..i really don't know where the hell it came from!and well i was still blurred and shocked and still standing down there with my mind that had gone blank..and then there was another bus coming from behind...'wha's that bus's no.?'i tried to figure it out....and so foolished of me that i was still standing there and the bus-driver thought i was going to take the bus...62...and of course not..i went to sit down and continued to look at my story book with my mind floated away...i had lost my face!it's so stupid!i should have looked at the bus with my spectacle on!
this are all the lists of my homeworks:
1)E math homework pratice 2b
2)chinese workbook 3 chapters
3)chinese..must learn the whole passage!
4)chinese tuition homework:zao ju,exercises
5)english fatual composition
6)english comprehension(tuition)
7)english journal(abt social studies which i hate the most!)
8)bio worksheet
9)social studies workbook three pages
i think that's all i have.so far i have done only one of them.and sunday i have to have chinese and eng tuition homework done! and friday night i kept reading story whichi had borrowed from the library.and i was manage to finished it within a day!i was impressed with myself as it was my first book that i could finish it in one day but got non of my homework done!:p
last night i was also trying to find some information for the english homework...and suddenly there was a message to me...msn click on to it without even glance at it.and i saw in the page of msn....had my nick name written there.i was so shocked when i looked at the e-mail address....and it was....i couldn't believe it and i kept staring at it for sometimes...before i type '?' back.i thought this person might not have forgetten me or we would never ever again msn with each other...and here once again..but i discovered later that this person wanted me to vote for this person photo online.i knew it that this person just wanted to make use of me... still i voted it. that's the end!and i clicked close of that msn page...goodbye....
saturday: it is a nice day today...and luckily i don't have chinese tuition today...well..i haven't finish my homework yet.in the evening i went jogging.as it was a splendid weather...i jogged for 7 to 8 rounds.i was satisfied with myself to be able to jog that much but still i ate two cups of ice-cream!peach orange and chocolate chip.so i think i had no way to lose weight.i wished i could have my weight around..41...yeah that's should be better than now!after dinner,my guardian sat down to chat with me and my sis..we talked abt piano...they kept saying that i'm talented in piano whichi don't think so....as i always got scoldings from my piano teacher.i can't really play new song just by looking at the scores at all and i have to get use to the song first.i of course take piano lesson seriously..i want to learn how to play those songs that i like:jay chou's song...canon in D...chinese song(for my mum and grandma)....some nice olden english songs for dad and i'm sure that my grandpa will like to listen to me play it!^-^ and most of all i enjoyed it!
in the late evening,my sis and i went to serangoo centre with my guardian to walk around...my sis brought me to the shop which sold the pens that looked so nice!i bought three blue pens which cost 40 cent each...one black pen which cost 50 cent...and one blue pen..which cost 1 dollar!i was satisfied with it and was overwhelmed with joys!i really love them all.the one dollar one...has a very special design...it looks like these candy but it's a pen...i just felt so happy then!
Sunday, January 23, 2005
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saturday-i woke up early in the morning to go to school for a bio lesson.
after the lesson,we started on decorating our classroom for chinese new year.actually i felt that we started a bit earier than others.at first,we arranged our table in new position(wish i don't quite like..cause i sit far back from the board)..then we started the board decoration.actually i had some planned abt our class decorations.for instance...putting the mug with pink(chinese)flowers on the teacher's table...using HongBao to make into chinese traditional clothes.and these on my ideas is added into the decoration.i have this feeling that our class is going to win for sure..i don't know but i just so confident! too bad that not even half of the class turn up to help...
but still i believe that with some of us and i putting in so much afford...we will win!my classmates(from china) help to write out the words..'xin nan kuai le' and it looks marvellous!and my hong bao clothes is totally goregous too!i used lots of hongbao to join them up to form a skirt and shirt(girl) and i'm going to continue with boy's on monday.i really putting lot of effort on this as i feel that i should do my best in order to make it nice.as we were doing,our form teacher watched us..i could tell from her eyes how good she felt abt us.eventhough it's quite wasting lot of time but it really made me feel good abt it!
actually i do not really read up on my text book for bio and chemistry at all...as when i have time i would prefer to read story book and now i can't quite catch up with the lesson in the school.
in the afternoon,i came home to have chinese tuition and then in the evening my sis and i went to heartland more.we met with sarah and she asked us why were we there...my answer was'to buy ice-cream!' that almost made her laugh.
these few day i kept thinking of some non-sense things.and the night before i even dreamt that i went for a singing contest...but i couldn't remember it very clearly...
sunday-this morning,i went for eng tuition.i still can't figure out whether my teacher is a male or female.
eventhough some of the classmate called his/her name..i still didn't get to hear it properly.
i guessed he is a male as he doesn't seem to have breast but he has a lady voice.his actions are all lady-like!...oh or may be he's...gay..no idea
i find that he can speak perfect english and he is quite a good teacher.i really wish that i could speak as well as him.in the evening i went jogging and as i were running,i thought abt the sport day last year which i came in forth position! i thought that i wanted to train myself this year may be if i had to go for it again...oh and also foe the cross-country run!i almost got top 20 position last year!i got 21 and the 20 position just infront of me!i just didn't hear what the teacher was shouting(telling us to run in to get the 20 position).that's really very sad!
Friday, January 21, 2005
ice-cream!!>
i'm in a good mood today and well....today the whole morning,i did nth but only reading that story book....actually i had read it yesterday night too and went to bed at 11.15pm.i just like to read it...i think i'm addicted to it...actually i feel that i had very little knowledge...i'm that sort of person who like to know what i'm intersted in.i know it's no good but i just like it that way.
today public holiday.in the atfernoon i therefore went to to heartland to meet up with sarah.as we want to buy some decoration for chinese new year to decorate the class.actually i'm quite happy as i'll be getting HONGBAO but don't know how much it can be...guess it's not that much.
today i had another ice-cream at mac.it's a new favor'peach orange sundae'!i really fell in love with it and i wished to have it again tomorrow!may be i might be gaining weight now but i don't care as long as i can have it! oh no! i think i'm really alike my mum now...then i went to popular with sarah and her sis to buy what we wanted..i really find that the work is not as easy as i thought it might be! tmr still have to go back to school for bio...and in the after noon still have chinese tuition!i'm really tired nowday...and i didn't even have time to on the tv for a week...but today night i did watch the 'spy kid2'(not sure of the spelling).actually i watch it as i find that one of the character is so handsome!he is!i really like his appearance....well but just for awhlie...oh yeah yester day i also see my horoscope(libra)and it said that this month i'm going to have a love at first sight...but i think it's not true as i dont believe in the love at first sight!however i still like to see horoscope...as sometimes can be true.
Thursday, January 20, 2005
lack of sleep!!>
it is thursday today and i had not been blogging for three days....
it's late evening now when i'm here blogging and listening to the music(s.h.e:bu zai chang) as well as the sound of my sis's handphone and the barking of the neighbour's dog(it always practices barking at this time!).....i really lack of sleep....this few days i have lot of things to do.
wednesday,19.01.05 : i had to stay back in the vav room after school for english enrichment and it was bored to deadth!i could really fell asleep!the presentor...(not quite know her name,also don't want to remember her name)...gave a speech on the englisg report.i could tell u that nth at all got into my head!firstly,i was no mood in listening to her and my eyes was ready to close any time!after the lesson of torturing was over,i went up with sarah to keep the chair back to our class and that's why i missed with pj.we had to go for A math tuition later.when i was walking outof the school,pj walked back to find me(as apple helped me to call her)....then we went to the tuition.i really don't like to have tuition but i have to have as i'm lazy to revise it on my own!
after the lesson,i went home and oh no!we are going to have bio test tomorrow...but i'm too exhauted to read it anyway it is an open book test...so i just did my jounal and then read story book'the lipstick choronicles'...it is abt love...and ok i think it's quite romantic...or may be not...then went to sleep...but the more tired i'm the more time it took me to sleep!
thrusday,20/01/05: it was joee birthday today and a few of us had treated in money to buy present for her.i didn't even know how the present looked like but came to know abt it today...it's barbe doll.it's very cute and it's looked gorgeous.it is the doll in the kimono dress!but if ask me,i would say that i don't like it.i just don't like to play with the barbe doll.i also gave present to jenny( my new classmat)...a candle.i love candle!i like the scent of it,the way it is represented and the feeling of the eternity.i did ever think of lit it to taste it's real scent but then it will melt and doesn't look as it used to be.i,therefore didn't lit it up and so to keep it and want it remains the same as ever. sometimes,i really don't understand myself....as the more like smth,the more i wanted it to be kept/stayed in what it is used to be.i didn't want it to get destroyed...like my handphone...i don't even want to bring it out as i'm scared that smth might happen to it. however mum said that we should scare of the this and that things!i will bring it out one day...i just don't like to take risk. today we got back E math test paper and oh i only got 1/5...hee...actually i can do but just for that time too careless and lack of confident and understandings....then we also had bio test...i had no confident in doing well at all!i felt that i have let down my admirer.don't know how he's been now.really wished to see him again!but he,for sure will be fined with everything that he has to face!
today after school,i had to stay back for a math enrichment as i'm chosen to teach 3D(two pupils).we were given worksheets and i had to teach them when they didn't know.i felt very strange and inconfident at first but after awhile i manged to cope with it.i was able to teach them and they were then able to do it.i'm really glad and satisfied with myself really!during the period,i looked out of the shutter to the opposite side of my class.i then saw the famillar figure but couldn't figure out without my spectacle.when i wore it,i realised that it was him again!i had saw him for more than 7 times this week.like on monday after walking out of the chemistry room,saw him walking out of the toliet or into...also (accidentally)walking behind his back..i even noticed that he did slidly turn his head to glance.in the cantten too!when i was standing at the soft drink stall and he walked pass me to buy smth.i really hated the smile on his face!i really don't understand why he had to smile!? after the enrichment,we walked in a group to go down..and we did walked pass him for some distance...i feel that he must be thinking of smth stupid!well whatever!
after the enrichment i went to toilet andthen to library.actually sarah wanted to come and find me but i couldn't find her.then i went to heartland more to mac to meet up with pj.she was with her friend...discussing with smth.i felt that her friend was a nice person eventhough we didn't really talk much. i never know that pj would be so happy before.she seemed very different at school and with her closed friend.i guess that is her really best friend.i'm happy for her to have a true friend.it's really hard to find.after that i went for tuition first as pj wanted to wait for another of her friend( but it was already late for 5 minutes)...i just feel that we are slowly seperated from each other.i'm really feeling very sad...=_= ...she's really a nice person....sarah too!but too bad that i have to choose wither of them.i really precious our friendship and wish that it will stay forever....actually i really hate of coming overseas to study and in the end i had to seperated from my old best friend and....may be more...
Monday, January 17, 2005
monday>
today i woke up before my sister.
last night she kept talking on the phone while i wanted to sleep.i beg her to stop it but she didn't listen....well after she had finished with it...i called mum to tell her abt sis's behaviour.it's not only one or two times...it's everyday!i just couldn't bare with it any longer.mum must had been angry and gave her a huge verbal thrashing!
i still felt tired today as i didn't have any good sleep for the past few days!yesterday still,i went jogging for 4 rounds and did 49 sit up!
today at school,i got back my eng composition.i got 17/30.even so it was not very good,i still felt happy abt it as at least i still pased.another mini A math test...it's really wasted!!!as i should got full mark but then of some REALLY stpid mistake!when i needed to sub y=-2/3 into another equation just forget to write the minus sign!that's it!i couldn't perfect it!
today we had to stay back for chemistry after school.three china girls in my class are damn good!!they just so talented..i know so much abt the chemical formular but i just knowing nothing at all!i'm sure that they must get top in my class.why chinese people from china are so talented?it's so unfair!i really wish that i could be as clever as them.
today pj and i missed the mavis tuition so we decided to replace it on either tuesday or wednesday.
i still have lots of work to do like...chinese tuition homework(compo,exercise,zao ju) , read and get the bio into my head..., read chemistry,practice math...oh still have eng tuition homework!i think if i just need to have enough of rest,these homework would be done very fast.however i felt sleepy everyday....and the more tired i'm,the more i can't fall asleep!
hope that tonight i could sleep well.
Sunday, January 16, 2005
the day you went away>
last night i had a dream....it was abt someone whom i used to be very closed with...i dreamt that we went out together....i still able to remember the smile and that little bright eyes.....
i didn't have a very good sleep last night...i woke up more than three times.i really do not know why i'm feeling as if i'm in resprospect and it does affect my mood today!....i just feel that all the miserable things have come back to me.i have lost lot of important things to me.i wish that i would not lose anything more.
i really think that i'm,sometimes,have a very weird thinkings which is different from other...
mum said that i'm a day-dreamer....well i guess so....many people said that artist seemed to very sensitive.may be i'm one of them.i'm not perfect at drawing but i really love staring at the scenery around me.i sometimes feel that i'm having mood-swing.i tend to keep my feelings and not to express it out...i just use to it and it's very hard for me to express my feelings...i guess not many people having the same difficulty as i am.i really wish i can to overcome it.
this morning,i woke up to pratice piano then i went to have english tuition.and back home here...
Friday, January 14, 2005
everybody has the right to choose what they want!>
am i in the wrong by asking my friend to join me for a tuition?anyway i do feel sad abt being accused but i don't want to explain anything.i believe that the truth will be reveal someday!
well.....i think having a tuition is very effective for me.eventhough i couldn't 100% understand what teacher had taught in the tuition class.the part that i couldn't understand,i would therefore pay more attention to it when my school teacher teaches us.i think we can't always depend on others but ourselves like in this case for tuition.if we don't understand,we should ask the teacher.for me,if i still don't really understand ,i wouldn't just treate it as a useless paper.....but i would keep it and come back to it when i understand everything after my school teacher had taught us.may be that's not what others think but i really believe that tuition for A math can really do help me.
now i have three tuitions!they are chinese,A math and english.i'm really very busy this year.....
in the evening i went jogging and i could only jog for four rounds.last time i used jog for eight rounds...i'm now having a backache....and i couldn't even bend to touch my toes....but i hope that it'll be fined one day.
hot friday>
i missed the 7.05am bus this morning!as i was walking to the bus-stop when i saw the bus was leaving in front of me.i knew that i still wouldn't able to catch it even if i ran.i had to wait for another bus.i really thought that i must be late as it was already 7.15am and another bus 53 just came.after boarding,my anxiety was rushing all over me and i kept praying that the bus driver could just drive a bit faster.however he seemed to be driving at the snail speed and we were held up by the traffic for three times!i looked around in the bus,there wasn't any students that wearing the same uniform as me.that made me feel worse!
luckily i was not late.
today we also had Amath mini test.i rushed through the end so manage to finish it but not sure abt my working.one thing that i know is that many people of my class are SUPER...good!i think many of them get full mark for it!
after school,sarah and i went to find mr lim.as he was explained i wasn't reallypaying attention at all.i just don't like chemistry!i prefer phy and bio.if it was not because of the school forcing me to choose between phy and bio!i would like to take them.
home once again,it was the second day of coming home early.i already had a plan as i wanted to practice piano!i had been very busy for the last few days....since monday had to go for tuition after school,wednesday had to stay back for library duty,thursday had to go to the bank with my guardian and rushed to the tuition.tomorrow still have chinese tuition and sunday english tuition!feeling so sick!i wish that i could end my study as fast as possible!
today i practiced piano for abt 1and half hour.i started to learn 'the entertainer'.i could only play the first page but not yet second page.my teacher had taught me but i couldn't quite recall.i mean it is like self-learning as i only have lessons during the holidays.i really wish that i could play well.the reason i took up piano lesson was that i wanted to be able to play Jay chou's song!i really love to!till now i still don't know how.but someday i'll!
the weather is extremely hot today!i just Supper....hate hot weather!i don't like to go out during the day but prefer to go during the night!i just fell in love with night sky.i do like fined day too but out of this i love the raining day the most!i find that it......nice yeah.
Wednesday, January 12, 2005
it's all my fault!>
it was sunday(2/1/05) as i was going to the airport.i left my house after saying goodbye to my grandpa and grandma!they,as usual,said that i must study hard.they've been saying it since i came to singapore for the first time!on my way to the airport,i felt as if i had to go to the other side of the world.i just felt that the blue sky in thailand is different from singapore's.
after i was there,i went to check in at the counter with my mum standing beside me.the person told us that i couldn't go back till my passport was being renew.my mind was blank as i couldn't believe what she had just said.then when mum told dad abt it,i then knew how bad it was! at that moment i still thought that there must be smth that able to help to me to go back to singapore.
however i was just dreaming away.i just couldn't believe it at all as it is my first time of having my passport expired!i really felt so stupid,really!i do really think that myself is stupid(sometimes).dad started to say me why didn't i check it.mum,too,started to scold me....and said how irrespondsible i am.i felt miserable abt it all and wished that i could turn back the time.
actually as i came back to thailand,i'd already knew that my passport was expired but just that i couldn't remember it.my sister dared not to go on her own,stayed behind to go back with me.
after that mum went to pay for the oversea telephone bill.at that counter,there was a tall guy standing but i couldn't figure out who he was(without my spectacle).then dad went over to mum.at that time i still felt the sadness inside of me.really i do !i ran to my dad to get hold on to his arm to allow me to feel better.i then called out 'daddy!'.then the tall guy who was next to my mum,turned and looked...at the same time i turned and looked too.and oh it was him....i had to looked up as he was totally tall and had had my cap covering my eyes.we were having an eyes contact for a few second.i was so surprised that my mouth almost dropped open!it was anembarrassing moment!so i turned and ran to my sister.i found that it silly to just continued to stare at him and having he staring at me!by running away made me feel like a fool too.
i saw many pupils were going up the plane as it was flying soon.then there i felt so bad that i was at the verge of tears!i just don't know why.....so i called my cousin to find somone to talk to.her name was (pake).she is very kind,the most respondsible girl i have ever met!many girls in her school even asked her for dates!
then we were on our way home....i still couldn't believe what had had happened!the day before,we just had a family gathering to treat as sending me to singapore.however i was going back home once again!when we were home,grandma and grandpa were surprised and mum told them the reason.from then,i got scoldings from them again!i knew that it was all my fault but u know ...we,people tend to make mistake,aren't we?