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Thursday, December 03, 2009
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it is now 3rd year and first trimester. and i'm goign to have final exam for the term, another christmas will arrive soon and another year is going to pass. I don't know why but i feel that my life in 20s passes so fast, comparing to the life in 10s.
Many times these days, i got stress up so easily that just with a tickle of stress , i would feel dizzy and headache. there's things to do and to study but i try not to think about it. Today, i just had moral and ethics quiz and as usual when i asked her a question and she oftens said that she didn't answer same as when i asked her during the class. i do not want to have such a negative thoughts but often feel that she's jealous of me. well... somewhat i feel that there's a crack in our relationship. : ( recently i feel that i'm sick of faking. may be i'm too serious with this.
in the canteen, i met with my teacher mariejoy who tought me in creative writing. she's really nice and actually i feel a bit uneasy to talk with her as i do not know what to say to her. she then told me about the class that she had this term that she had a class of students who were not so active. and she looked a bit upset. then i told her that she might change her teaching method. like form a small groups of students and let them discuss by their own. Then i feel that if i'm too stright-forward. like teaching her how to teach.. which made me regret of what i had said. still i feel that it is also important to just being truthful to her. After i told her we could contact in e-mail sometimes.and i noticed later that her eyes moisted. and she excused herself. i was wondering if she was going to cry because of what i said or because of her teaching method. Well but she's really a nice person .
well, today i parked my car so far away from the muic building . like 7-8 blocks away and i have to walk all the way which made me late for the car. but on my way to the car, i met Joy and she oferred to give me a ride. hmm.. i don't know but i feel that i just got touched by that even though she might not think anything abt that. And she rode her bicycle while i sat at the back. and i felt so nervous as i didn't ride bicycle for ages nor someone giving me a ride and i didn't know how good her skill was. well but it went smoothly and i really enjoy the ride. and we had a small chat that may be next term , we could take the bicycle class together. which seems to be really interesting. i just noticed another side of myself that may be i'm an outgoing type of person. haha..
